"I’m left with doubts, fears, and even anger. .... I put Jesus’ name out there and He didn’t show up"

I’m saddened that someone would have such fragile faith.

I’m heartbroken that someone with such fragile faith would be in a position of leadership, especially on a mission field where godly leaders might be few and far between.

I’m sickened that such accusations would be leveled against Jesus, as if He is somehow blameworthy for – something, anything.

I’m shocked at the shallowness of the church that is so conceited as to try to replace God as the Sovereign of creation. Somehow worldliness has reached the epidemic status within the body that God is now demoted to genie in a bottle Who is responsible to satisfy my whims. Seems like the cart has run the horse over.

I felt the Spirit say go ahead (or what I thought was the Spirit).

His first mistake.